Ok, so I have been doing Beach Body's workout "Insanity". It's very difficult. It's a 63 day program and the second month is much harder than the first. Today I started the second month. As I was working my ass off, I got SO ANGRY! I realized, I was pregnant 3 years in a row and gained this weight. Not that I am fat by any means. I only weigh 127 pounds. I do, however, have some belly fat that I am trying to get rid of. Anyway, pregnant 3 years in a row and only have 2 freakin' babies here to hug on. How the fuck is that fair? I mean, if you thought it was fair to take my son.. why not take my freakin' belly too? Does this make any sense? I am just reallllllllly mad right now. It would be much easier for me to get through this if I had 3 babies to put to bed each night. Three babies to pick on AS. Three carseats to throw in my big SUV...
Hard day. The end.
Oh and p.s. I know you all won't understand. Most will be like "is she freakin' serious, she's 5'6" and only 127.. wtf is wrong with her.." But whatever.. I don't expect many to understand anything anyway.
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I understand where you are coming from...I was pregnant for almost 3 years, with no babies here to hold. I had a miscarriage and then my 2 babies who were born still. That is the most frustrating weight to lose ever! I think your body holds onto a little extra belly fat thinking you will get pregnant again....hope you feel better soon and get the results you want from the work you are putting in....
ReplyDeleteI get ya, hun. I've had 3 babies in 3 yrs too with one missing. Im 5'1" and 110 lbs but I have this belly now that I've never had so bad before and I hate it. I want to get rid of it. There's supposed to be this DVD called Get rid of your mummy tummy that helps w/ diastasis recti. I so wanna get it b/c my stomach muscles really need some help closing back together and I don't want surgery.
ReplyDeleteI get that, I have bellyfat, stretchmarks, and a c section scar.. but do i have my little boy ... nope :(
ReplyDeleteI think having a child to hold would be enough of a distraction to take away from all of that, but since hes not here with me I have the little things to obsess over :P