Friday, February 25, 2011

So fat, so angry!

Ok, so I have been doing Beach Body's workout "Insanity". It's very difficult. It's a 63 day program and the second month is much harder than the first. Today I started the second month. As I was working my ass off, I got SO ANGRY! I realized, I was pregnant 3 years in a row and gained this weight. Not that I am fat by any means. I only weigh 127 pounds. I do, however, have some belly fat that I am trying to get rid of. Anyway, pregnant 3 years in a row and only have 2 freakin' babies here to hug on. How the fuck is that fair? I mean, if you thought it was fair to take my son.. why not take my freakin' belly too? Does this make any sense? I am just reallllllllly mad right now. It would be much easier for me to get through this if I had 3 babies to put to bed each night. Three babies to pick on AS. Three carseats to throw in my big SUV...

Hard day. The end.

Oh and p.s. I know you all won't understand. Most will be like "is she freakin' serious, she's 5'6" and only 127.. wtf is wrong with her.." But whatever.. I don't expect many to understand anything anyway.

3 comments:

  1. I understand where you are coming from...I was pregnant for almost 3 years, with no babies here to hold. I had a miscarriage and then my 2 babies who were born still. That is the most frustrating weight to lose ever! I think your body holds onto a little extra belly fat thinking you will get pregnant again....hope you feel better soon and get the results you want from the work you are putting in....

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  2. I get ya, hun. I've had 3 babies in 3 yrs too with one missing. Im 5'1" and 110 lbs but I have this belly now that I've never had so bad before and I hate it. I want to get rid of it. There's supposed to be this DVD called Get rid of your mummy tummy that helps w/ diastasis recti. I so wanna get it b/c my stomach muscles really need some help closing back together and I don't want surgery.

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  3. I get that, I have bellyfat, stretchmarks, and a c section scar.. but do i have my little boy ... nope :(
    I think having a child to hold would be enough of a distraction to take away from all of that, but since hes not here with me I have the little things to obsess over :P

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